Seriously. I was tired of having that other journal all big and shiny on my page.
So now it has been replaced...but by what..well this journal of course...but what to put in this one....i could leave it like this....naw...i think i'll fill it with a bunch of pointless bulletins i posted on my myspace (SHAME!) during winter break... (this comes in a few...5 parts cuz it is LONG)

Early Morning Thoughts of Winter Break
Category: Life

So, today is Sunday the 6th of January.Every early morning since 24th or so (not sure because myspaces saved bulletins don't go that far back. But the 24th is when break started) i have been posting random bulletins. The fallowing are the ones that myspace hasn't gotten rid of yet (so...i think it's missing some of the first few).
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December 29th 2:09am

Subject: BLAH!!! SHAZAM!!!! BUNNIES!!! BANG!!!!
Body: DUDEZ!!!!!
Urm....i have tired feeling around my eyes. BUT I WILL IGNORE YOU TIREDNESS!!!!! OH BITCH MESSENGER OF SLEEP!!!!
Cuz i want to make a sandwich.
I bought some tasty mexican sweet bread and i think it would make a nice un-melted-cheese sandwich.
But i'm being a bit lazy NO! correction i'm taking my sweet bread time. (hahaha)
Thats more like it.

COMMENT MY NEW PIX OR I'LL....SOMETHINGNOTHINGFUNNYBUNNIESBLAHSHAZAMBU NNIESBANGBANG!!!!
.....or i'll comment you back if yeah do comment.

-Monica
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December 29 3:37am

Subject: Sleep, fuck, dream, making, tired, sandwich
Body: Screw it, i'm not making a sandwich!
But i wrote stuff.
Random lines that may be patched to gather in some way....

I refuse(X3) These lids aren't shutting down.
I'm not turning in, i'm not hitting the hey.
Go away tiredness, bitch messenger of sleep.
Why sleep? When ones curtains are closed, darkness creeps, as one sleeps, baring bare gifts, empty one night stands, with dreams.
Dream sweet, sleep deep, don't get connected, it's fake,
oh oh oh, sleep, dreams, such a tease,
Your an empty shell, leading me on, so sweet at the time, but then i open my eyes, and it's all gone, (no way back)
Sleep despises rejection, it has a weapon, oh lethargy, oh oh tiredness, such a slow shut down, a slow head colliding with pillow train wreck, in the end your down.
In the end, after days of battle, sleep dear, your tired now, sleep has sucked your life like florescent lights . It beckons you with it's sweet slow touch. Calls you softly to bed, lie down, with it. Sleep with sleep. It will show you a good time you'll never remember, never forget, all ways long for.
Sleep deary, sleep.

-Monicamightgiveinsoon
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December 30 12:03
(i'm not copying this bulletin. It had picture of REAL Neon Knives and saying people should go to my bands show).
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DOS! 2! TWO! TO! TOO!

Part 2

The fallowing two bulletins are the same. My computer acts up some times so i didn't think the bulletin had been posted.
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December 30 3:25am

Subject: Sweet, milk with honey and a bit of vanilla
Body: Yep, unlike the sandwich, i actually made myself the warm milk with honey (and add a bit of vanilla) when i typed i would.
And it was good tasting, but my throat it pretty much the same as before.
I think i'll be giving in soon.
All i get now when i tip my mug and touch it to my lips is a slow moving drop of honey.
I'm giving in earlier i think.
But i have kept my sanity.
But not my defiance to sleep.
Or a full warm glass of milk and honey (with a hint of vanilla).

Good Night?

-Monica
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December 30 3:33am

Subject: Honey,milk,vanilla
Body: So i made my drink.
It was tasty.
I added a hint of vanilla which was nice.
But my throat still chills with every breath.
I think i'm giving in now.
When ever i bring my mug to my lips all that comes is a slow mving drop of sweet honey.
Not quite as good when with out the others.
At least this time when i get off,
I still have my sanity,
in most of the final bulletins i had gone a bit crazy.
But i'm checking out a little earlier to night ( i think).
Maybe i'll get better.

Good Night?

-Monica
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Date: Dec 31, 2007 1:29 AM
Subject: Just because your up so early...i think you should know
Body: Kneonnives.
Think your ready to hear my band?
We're recording friday.

-Monica
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Date: Dec 31, 2007 2:36 AM
Subject: Nehha. If you jump i'll tip
Body: Yippy! Late night/early bulletin Number something! If you have read any of these please message me. I would like to know who has been reading my rambles.
Any whosys.
Any body love the sent box thing. I do. But i hate knowing that people have read a message but not replied. It makes me wonder if there just taking a hell of a long time to type something, what are they typing, are they not going to reply back, did i type something bad, and on and on cuz i like to over think some times.
DUDES!
My band is finally recording. Happy happy.
And! I am completely ready for a lame new years eve. I'm watching eh movies with the fam. Any one doing anything cool. From the people i have talked to it seems like a mellow new years eve.

Is that a bug bite? Or what is it?

-Monica
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Date: Dec 31, 2007 3:05 AM
Subject: Ummm....
Body: Yeah...i had something i was going to type but i kinda forgot. I'm listening to "Underdog World Strike" by Gogol Bordello.
I love this song. Gyspy punk is fucking amazing. I love it so much.
Check em out. And especialy that song. It's rad.


Also, i have decided notot go to sleep untill my step-brother stops playing his video game and goes to sleep. But i'm not going to tell him that.

-monicaisagypsypunk
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Date: Dec 31, 2007 3:44 AM
Subject: Blah!!!!!!!
Body: Reilley wont stop playing his video game and i don't want to go to sleep before him. I want to beat him. Stay up longer. Not give in before him. But after nights of winning and not feeling like/wanting to go to sleeep, just like yestarday, i'm starting to give in fatser. Actaully i'm lasting longer then i did yesterday. But i actaully want to go to sleep (kind of). Which is different.
BBBBBLLLLLAAAAHHH GGGGGRRRRRR>>>>>>
eh.
-Monica
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Date: Dec 31, 2007 4:11 AM
Subject: flip flopping dolphin, sleeping and waking.
Body: So i hit the "post bulletin" button thinking i'm back to my usualy, i'm-gonna-post-a-random-bulletin-about-stuff-and-i-don't-feel-like-sleeping-yet mood but now i'm waving between, yes i do want to go to sleep and no i wont go to sleep.
So now i'm not sure.
But i would like some milk.
Meow?

-Moni

Trilogy? nope.

Part 3

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Date: Dec 31, 2007 4:11 AM
Subject: flip flopping dolphin, sleeping and waking.
Body: So i hit the "post bulletin" button thinking i'm back to my usualy, i'm-gonna-post-a-random-bulletin-about-stuff-and-i-don't-feel-like-sleeping-yet mood but now i'm waving between, yes i do want to go to sleep and no i wont go to sleep.
So now i'm not sure.
But i would like some milk.
Meow?

-Moni
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Date: Jan 2, 2008 2:33 AM
Subject: I guess....
Body: It's that time agian.TIME FOR ANOTHER RANDOM BULLETIN!!!!
Which i just recently found out i have at least two readers. To them and my unknown readers i say, GOOD MORNING!
I didn't post yesterday but eh. I guess i should explian (seeing as the i guess point of these is to write about what ever maybe on my mind ish).
So i had decided that new years was going to suck. Which it didn't. It was alright. I hung out with two friends from school i never really hang out with or talk to and one of there boyfriends. We went to volunteer park and watched the fireworks.
Fireworks, let that be our first topic, along wit its connection with new years. See i have found that fireworks have lost there cool. They no long make me want to watch for ever. In fact i find them repetative and boring. And new years, eh. It's a new day. The only difference is now i'm writing one digit different when i write the year. I mean it's cool but, i guess i don't see what all the commotion is about any more. All it is, is once a year on a certaint day i feel the need to do something cool. But last night i did something i think, well nothing about i guess. See i wrote something in chalk that night on...the concrete.
"are you excited because of the new year? Or mearly excited because its what is expected"
Think about that.
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Date: Jan 2, 2008 2:56 AM
Subject: Paused, just for you.
Body: OH MY FUCKING NONE EXCISTENT GOD!!!!!
The bottom of my foot itches.
And i'm going to kill stupid myspace Tom.
He keeps friend requesting me. Hell, first it was Tom w/the picture of tom. Then it was Lucy, with a picture of tom and when i clicked on the picture it took me to Toms myspace cept the name was Lucy. That happened twice with two different names. Then i got Tom with no picture and it was some gay guy ( i have no probelm with gays. Just Tom raping my inbox with an assortment of toms.)
So, there is nothing on tv and i have now decided to finaly watch my x-mas present, Nirvana:Unplugged in New York. Which i watched some of the extras right when i got it but now i'm watching the actually...thing. ish.
Now see i could've watched a movie one of those million other times i was refusing to go to bed but decided not to cuz i'm a stupid person cuz i have a slight want for a boyfriend. Which i find a little bit of a depressing want. But what ever. So i have not been watching the other movies that i now have cuz i want to watch my movies with some one else.
Also, just of now i am deciding that for some reason guys in bands are irresistble (which i believe. Musicians are awesome. I have yet to actualy date one though. But trust me i will). But for some reason girls in bands...well...are just girls in bands. Them being in a band doesn't give them a plus or a minus it's just there. It only works for guys. Hell as far as i know not even guys in bands find girls in bands more attractive.
Hell is a lovely word.
Now after pausing Nirvana just for my ghost audience...i'm going to continue watching.
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Date: Jan 3, 2008 1:25 AM
Subject: It's started agian....
Body: I HATE STUPID MYSPACE TOM!
I got another friend request from him cept his name was Brandi. But it was Tom because there was the picture of tom and i bet if i clicked on it it would go to his myspace.
Blah.
New Craig Ferguson is back on tv (no more repeats).
And he has no guests.
It's pretty good.
Blah, i'm hungry.
But the microwave and convection oven make an unavoidable loud ding.
And my mom and step dad wont go to fucking sleep so i'm paranoid.

How are you people?
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Date: Jan 3, 2008 1:59 AM
Subject: weird stuff is on the side
Body: of my screen. Those weird adds and such.
Blah blah.
My toes hurt. And um...my brain has died...and ummm...this is what is called a slow day....i have little to nothing to type in this mornings random bulletin.
Today, there will probably be no 3am-4am posts. I HAVE A BAND MEETING!!!! So i am going to go to sleep so i can get up at a time that i could then go to the bank, cash my pay check, go to the ave, buy a dress (that i saw that i hearts), get back home, grab my bass amp and shitty microphone (oh yeah, thats my set up for vocals, a shitty little bass amp, and a $15-20 karaoke microphone with duct tape on it). Then get back on a bus and go to my band meeting.
What is the correct equipment for a vocalist?
A better mic and amp?

-Monica
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Subject: AHAHAH
Body: Since there is an a in the front did that laugh turn in to a scream?
Thats it, i'm going to sleep.
I'm going to rock that practice. Then friday. I'm going to bed earlier so i can rock the recording. Thats right, Kneonnives is recording. Think your ready to hear my band. Cuz i think you are. I'm really excited to find out what you guys think.

Sleepy time, night night,

Good night.

-monica,lovesthatboysvoicemisswhatsheneverreallyhadwantswhatshedoesn'tknowshewants
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It goes on and on and on...

Part 4

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Date: Jan 3, 2008 10:11 PM
Subject: OUCHERS MY LEGS!
Body: My legs hurt. Big time. Really bad.
You know what this means.
I'M GROWING!!!!!
NO LONGER WILL I BE 5'2!!!!!
Now i will be....
5'2.5"!!!!!
Or who knows, maybe even...
5'3"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yippy!!!!!

-moniknowsthat5'3"isstillshortbutneh.
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 1:35 AM
Subject: It is time...
Body: My fellow myspacers at the time of 1:29. I am now going to see if these hours of leg and foot extreme hurting has paid off in any way, making me taller, not like i really care, i am quite fine with my height, just not the immense amount of ouch coming from my legs (and now feet). *pulls measuring tape*
YIPPY!!!!! I have grown a half an inch!!!!!
And my legs are still killing me.
It is very likely that i measured a little over but what ever.

-moni
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 1:59 AM
Subject: AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Body: Ok, so my legs are still killing me and it feels like some one is stabbing my feet and trying to rip my muscles out of my legs.
And there have been so many times today where something will be said that was said earlier but by a different person with out the second person knowing they are repeating.
Good night all. I have to go to bed so i can record tomorrow.
Keep an eye on the Kneonnives myspace.

-Monica
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 10:26 AM
Subject: 13 little birdies.
Body: There are 13+ birds in my front yard right now. And i have four cats.
How many died birds do you think i will find later on today?
Ha, in that short amount of time the number of birds dropped,
now there are only 5.
Haha.
No my cats didn't kill 8 birds.
They just flew away.
Ok, now there are 6 (and two more not that far away)
(i didn't type allot of random bulletins early early this morning so now i'm making up for it, recording was canceled sad )

I just saw one of the birds pull two worms out of the ground. Weird.
HOLY SHIT!!!!!
ALL THE BIRDS ARE GONE!
Why is the shit holy?

-Monica
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 10:39 AM
Subject: There back...
Body: The bird that pulled out the two worms came back and i saw it eat it...weird. Then it poked at the other one, and flew away. Then zero birds. Then a tiny tiney bird came which is still here, then the other one came back and ate the other worm. Now there are just a few tiny birds.
Ok, they all went away again. Then they just came back, not the little ones but the medium/big ones.
There all bashing there heads in to the ground, some times pulling up a worm. They never eat it right away, they whack it against the ground or poke it a few times.
There all sparrows i think. A few robins and i think i saw a blue jay across the street. Then there are the really small birds, and i have no clue what they are.

-Monicaissobordsheisbirdwatching
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 10:50 AM
Subject: Planes
Body: Planes Plains pl-ain-ane-z
thats what makes the birdies go away.
That and semi-loud ish noises and cars. Which i guess would go under semi-loud noises, but so would allot of things.
These bulletins are a good example of why i shouldn't have free time.


-Moni
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Date: Jan 4, 2008 11:11 AM
Subject: haha, so many. Released
Body: The poody-tat (kitty cat) Zepher has just been released. I let him out the back door, the front door is a bit loud, the birds would fly away. Ha, so mean. I haven't seen him in the front yard yet. And all the birds just left. Poor Zeff. Never caught a bird (today, trust me that cat has caught a few birds and rats and mice in is life).

This is i think the 5 bulletin this morning (or the 7th).
Wow....this is only ok from the hours of 2-4am. I should and probably maybe will stop now.

-Monica
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Date: Jan 5, 2008 2:02 AM
Subject: wowzerz
Body: I haven't posted a random pointless bulletin yet.
Well today was awesome, or i guess yesterday was. Today has only been around for a short while but i guess it is good to (besides the mass amount of annoying nervousness indusesing movement from up stairs.GO TO FUCKING SLEEP MOM!!! I WANT TO USE THE COMPUTER WHEN I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE WITH OUT YOU FREAKING ME OUT OR GETTING MAD!)
So yeah, yestarday Kneonnives recorded. We recorded the drums, bass, and guitar, for one song. And guitar, bass, and vocals for another. Both will hopefully be finished when we go back to..i think BenAnne called it the Love Shack studio. Not sure though, but Anne's house is amazing (her dogs are very cute) amd BenAnne are two of the raddest people i know now and Kneonnives owes them bunches.
Today should be fun to (IF PEOPLE STOP FUCKING MOVING UP STAIRS!!!!!!). I'm going to the vera to see Kay Kay and His Weathered Underground, The Lashes, The Lonely H, and Ships.
Show starts at 8pm and is $10 or so. If you can go i would suggest it.

Ok, thats it.
I have had enough of that movement, I'm probably getting off soon. And not getting back for a LONG while or just getting off for an hour or so.
Either way, the people up stairs should GO TO FUCKING BED ALREADY OR STOP MOVING AROUND SO MUCH!!

-Monicaisannoyed
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Yippy for journals in many parts! If you have read them all thank you! Here is the final part!

Part 5

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Date: Jan 5, 2008 2:16 AM
Subject: AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!! JEEZ!!!
Body: It sounds like some one is shift around all the fuck frunature in there room around. It's really starting...ok it's really annoying me. I swear, i'm going to go up there with a bat or hard object of some sort and whack the fucker out.
Some people are trying to do things there not supposed to be doing with out feeling really tesned and annoying the whole fucking time!
This is insane!!!!!
And i want a glass of milk.

-Moni (not moan-e)
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Date: Jan 5, 2008 2:36 AM
Subject: Stupid brother!
Body: Also, i occassionaly hear the sound of one short whistle. Like a person whistling not an actually whistle.
And i found out the annoy culpret of this annoying up stairs noise. I already suspected my brother Keano because the sound was coiming from the upstairs area of where his room is, and when i finaly decided to go up stairs for a drink of milk i noticed that his bedroom light was on.
Stupid brother.
Stop doing what ever your doing.
GGGrrrr you Keano.

-Monica
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Date: Jan 5, 2008 4:41 AM
Subject: sleepy?
Body: So i talked to keano. Turns out i was right. He was re-arranging frunature in his room. He received many bad juejue points for freaking me out so much.
DUDES! Kneonnives recorded today!!!! Keep an ear out, and PLEASE! when we post music, listen to it. And PLEASE tell me what you honestly think. I want to know. The good and the bad.
Any ways. I'm listening to The Cherusb right now, i suggest that you check em out. [link]
I think i'm going to go sleepy sleepy soon. I'm going to finish my glass of milk check messages, empty inbox, then sleepy time.
I suggest one more thing. Go see kay kay and his weathered underground, the lashes, the lonely h , and ships at the vera at 8pm. It's going to be awesomely rad.

-Moni
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Date: Jan 6, 2008 3:00 AM
Subject: Meow?
Body: I like milk.

,,,,......,,,,,........,,,,,,,,,,,

The concert that i went to tonight was awesome. Good first show if '08.

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Why spend life thinking about the big things,
When you can spend life entertained by the little things?

-Monica

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Date: Jan 6, 2008 3:47 AM
Subject: The end
Body: This is the last of my random early morning bulletins. I will probably collect them all in to a blog just for kicks later on today/eventually.
Then we can all see if i became more or less sane per bullletin.
Who knows, maybe i will continue posting random bulletins, except only on early saturday morning and early sunday morning from now on, and collect thoughs in a monthly, or ever other month blog. Just for fun.
Any whosys. To those out there you have been reading, i type, thank you. For those of you who this is yoru first, click on "see all bulletins posted by user" of you wish t read my other rambles. I hope i have entertained you. Sorry this is such a bad final.
But bleh.
I haven't gotten a glass of milk yet.
Jeez, i love milk. Meow meow meow.

Remember,
Stepping on tape dispensors hurts.
"It's worth my sanity to break the law"
and

why think about the big things (in life),
When you can be entertained by the little things?

-Monica